A Muffin is for Life, not just for Xmas

Were gonna have internet on friday!!

Stolen from darksideofstorm

 

I have my computer back at my Mum's place.  So i can now play WOW!!!!!!!

God I'm such a geek.  I'ts fabulous!

Tim said something to me last night that got me thinking. 

Ok, so I've solved our internet problems.  In a way.

I finally remembered that my parents house has internet!  They have gone on holiday to Orkney and so I phoned them and they seem to be more than happy about having someone here to house sit for them.  We have taken the Cats with us and they are loving being home.

So finally we both have internet on hand without having to trek all the way down to the library and stay there as long as we want to be on the internet.  We have sky TV here too.  So Dark and I can plonk ourselves down in the lounge and watch TV whilst being on the net.  Just to make it even more perfect we have the worlds comfiest sofa to sit on too :D

OOOHHH and also i can talk on VENT!  I can finally talk to my friends!!  I've missed them so much since i moved house.  Its great to be able to catch up with whats going on.

So, yeah.  Happy Sophie

*GLEEEEE*

Stolen from jbmcdragon

WHAT IS YOUR NAME? Sophie
4 LETTER WORD: Sexy
BOY NAME: Simon
GIRL NAME: Sarah
OCCUPATION: Student (is sooo an occupation :P )
A COLOUR: Sapphire
SOMETHING YOU WEAR: Shoes
BEVERAGE: Squash (english for fruit juice :D )
FOOD: SPAGHETTI!
SOMETHING FOUND IN A BATHROOM: Sooty (my cat, he lives in there... its worrying)
PLACE: San-fransisco
REASON FOR BEING LATE: ...Sex...
SOMETHING YOU SHOUT: Sugar! (My Mum never swears and its suprising how much venom you can put into that one poor little word.)

Stolen from darksideofstorm

Amusing meme stolen from darksideofstorm who stole it from ainasiriel :)

Ok here are the latest pickys I have doe.

 

This is of the charachter Ryouma from Fallen_Leaves.  (he got tortured)



This is Tsume from Fallen_Leaves after she has had complications with a rot jutsu.



And finally this is Shaddow (Kakashi) a charachter in darksideofstorm, jbmcdragon and kilerkki's AU/possible novel that they are working on.

I've been doing a lot of drawing since I moved *grins*.  But its fun!

Timmi is coming over here for August break!!!!!!!!! *GLEEEEEEEEEEEEEE*

Its going to be too hot for either of us to survive in Italy during that time, so he's coming here instead!! 

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY!!!!

*bounces around house*

Well i'm moved!  YAY! and amazingly, I'm actually half unpacked.  Nothing's broken (if you don't count a minour scare with my computer) and I didn't die.  Its all good *bounces tiredly*

Still got lots to do, but meh, it's half done so i'm taking a breather.

It's really nice here and Kyra has been a star!  She helped with the move and never complained.  In return she is now on the Sunday lunch rota at my parents house, so I think she liked the deal.

I've slowly been working on another Ryouma picky for the entirely fabulous Ki, and I have big plans for one for JB too.  So I'm brimming over with ideas for various pickys.

We also went to see 2 films the other day.  Hancock (which is a must see) and Wanted, which was just pretty.  A bit fantastical with the storyline, but never the less a great film.  Oh and I nearly forgot we went to see Prince Caspian as well.  My god, how could i have forgotten that!  The mouse!! Eddi Izzard!! GAHHHHHHHHHHHH.  It was soooooooo good.  And the graphics were to die for.

So all in all, every things going great!

This is the plan for tomorow...

4:30 am leave house for airport.
6:30am check in at airport.
8:30 am Tim gets on plain.
8:32 am Mother escorts me to cafe to stop me from crying, with the promise of caffiene.
10:30am (ish) pick up stuff from my house.
11:30am onwards movi into new house!

This is the plan! It is a good plan.  Its all orgonised and everything.

Now...I sleep!

Ok, sooooooo much to do!  My brain is all over the place.  So I've decided to procrastinate and write this instead.  *Is clever, not*

The house still needs me to go through the bedroom, clothes, food and general tidying and cleaning.  We have a wardrobe door to replace (because my mum accidentally broke the mirror on it) and a chipped cheep woodern floor to, urmm, unchip?!

On an up note, my speakers seem to have fixed themselves! So I can now play music whilst i work.

Tim is somewhere around 'mental breakdown' in his stages of GAHHHHHHH-ness.  I seem to be odly in control.  Its weird.  I think I've just gone into 'be practical' mode (whilst not, actually, doing anything :P )

Right.  I'm gonna sort out the food shelves.

After what felt like a worlwind stop at my place by my mother, I can now proudly say that the house is officially half packed away.  Apparently there was a reason i kept all those damned Tesco bags this year.  The hall way is full of the damn things; with everything from crockery to CD's in them.  One i believe has a flowerpot in.

The house is incredibly empty now, so I don't quite know how Tims gonna take it when he wakes up.  Probably ok, as the food hasn't been packed away yet and his computer is still in-tacked.  The man can not be said to not have clear priorities :P

I've done all our washing up (there was a deffinite mountain of the stuff) and now our cupboards are full again.  Its deffinite eating out of the box, or on paper plates from now until Tuesday.

Just got the bedroom to tackle now (oh and the food).  Some stuff to take down off the walls and a few light bulbs to replace.

Its rather surreal that this is actually coming into fruition.  I am actually going to be moving out.  And Tim is actually going away... GAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

At least I'll se him in 2 months time.

Incidentally this is sooooooooo a Kakashi song : Saliva : Famous Monsters.

On a more poingient note.  Tim is in bed again.  He got upset at me writing and went to bed at about 5 this afternoon.  He doesn't like it when i write.  It upsets him, because he doesn't like my writing style and so doesn't like to read my writing.  (The reason I stopped writing in the first place).  It upsets him that he can't (his words not mine) say anything supportive or complimentary about how or what I write.  So yeah, to cut a long story short, he went to bed.

I'm now alone in a house with two people in it.  It would be better to be alone without Tim being here.  I'm scared to make a noise incase he wakes up.  We'll be opperating in shifts again I think.  I had one day at least with him being awake when I was.

I'm just so lonely.

Something that I woke up in the night thinking about and so I wrote it down.  Based upon darksideofstorm 's and nezumiko 's interpretations of the Naruto characters of Raidou and Genma that they play in Fallen_Leaves.  I suppose this is fan fiction of fan fiction :S

Oh well, here it is ...

 

Just a bit of writing that I've done.  I think the technical-ish term is free writing.  I just allowed whatever came to mind to go onto the page.

Its odd to feel lost in your own house.  But I do. 

Tim is asleep in the bedroom and snoring and chattering away in his sleep.  I think the last coherent thing he said was... "No you can't be pregnant!" Which is vaguely worrying.


I've spent the last Gods knows how many hours asleep and my body is still faintly stunned by the whole 'being awake' thing I think.  My brain is still half dreaming, it's weird.

I don't know what to do, I feel lost and not quite with it.  You know those feelings where you know that there's something you want to do, but you don't quite know what it is?  Well thats me right now.  I'm sat at my computer, with a very puzzled look on my face, trying to figure out the world.  Something's not quite right, but I don't know what it is.  *muses*  Maybe I just need caffeine.  I've not had my morning dose yet.  Still have to take my pills too... (I now rattle I have that many medications to take).  I can't wait 'till my anti acid medication is over.  Although I'm vaguely in fear of what might happen when I stop taking it.

Humm, maybe I could listen to a story book and play computer games...
Or listen to a story book and draw.  I've not drawn in ages.

Gahh Tim just said "gurr stop poking me" in his sleep... OK now I'm worried...
Isn't taking in your sleep a sign of stress?  Humm.

Maybe I could write something.  I've wanted to try to start writing again.  But I'm kind of scared to.  My brain blanks a bit.  Unless of course I'm writing a rambling, streem of consciousness, type diary post.  I appear to be rather Ego centric right now.

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Also need to try to sort out the house for 'the big move'.  Which is now less than a month away.  GAHHHHHH.

Need to start packing things away that we arn't using on a daily basis -- basically 3/4 of the house -- and start shipping them off to the relivant places.

Tim needs to sort out his flights.  Thankfully his soon to be flat mates have sorted out the accommodation.  They now have somewhere to live next year!

So Tim just needs to work out flights and baggage costs etc...

I need to work out move dates for myself.  I also need to figure out where the hell I'm gonna keep our massive double bed (there is no room to put it in my new place.)

Also need to figure out what were gonna do with all of Tim's stuff he's not taking to Italy.

Also have a few bills to pay.  And no money to pay them with...

Hummm

Ok, just a quicky... I have finally gotten round to applying for a job!   *fingers crossed*  Just gotta hope i get it now!  (I'm already lying to the parents about bing in work, so hopefully i won't have to lie any longer!)

A little on the meh side of things today, don't know why.  I can hazard a few guesses, but I'm not entirely certain.

Taking a glance around at my life right now, and to hazard a guess or two I'd probably have to say it has something to do with the fact that Timmi is going away to Florance next month, I still haven't phoned up about getting a job, I'm gonna be moving house soon to live with my friends (and I really really really don't want to fuck that up) and I have no one to really talk to about any of this.

Tim has gone nocturnal, I've bored Kyra to death about all this already, my Mum (bless her cotton socks) is rather busy right now and I have no one else.

Change is scary, and I'm scared.  The one constant that has been in my life for the past seven years is going away.  I know things are bad right now, and I know that we have some rather major issues, but I still love him.  And for someone who has been a constant, and sometimes only companion, to go away is a big friggin deal.

I'm so gald that I'm going to be moving into a house with Ruth and Kyra next year because I'm utterly terrified of being alone.  I am happy for Tim, I really am.  Its a great opportunity for him, but for me...

Well for me its an opportunity to grow as a person I suppose.  To learn to stand on my own two feet and to become indipendant in a way that I haven't had to do before.  But still... MEH!  Its big, and its scary, and I'm gonna miss Timmi.

So yeah, meh.